When I read my notes afterwards, I think, “Oh god, the disease has been so exhausting and has made my life so difficult.” I’ve come so far that I have a hard time understanding or remembering some of my problems at the time.
I am so happy that I have managed to overcome the disease and face it. Now I am (almost) completely healthy. Of course I have to work on some topics, but now I know that I can do it! I know what I can do and I know what I want and what I do not want. I never want to go back to the disease, but enjoy my newfound freedom and my exciting life now. I will never withdraw again into myself, but look forward to the new. I now trust in myself and my skills. I have learned and understood that structures and prohibitions do not protect me from anything bad, but restrict me to live my life freely. Nothing bad happens if I’m not perfect. Not perfect is normal and in the meantime I find it even better and funnier not to be perfect. I am so much happier and happier with myself and my life than before, and that is an amazingly great and reassuring feeling. And even in difficult, problematic situations, I now notice more and more of my inner security and strength and this feeling is simply indescribably great.
Luckily, during therapy time I always had my family around me, who knew from the start what was going on and always understood me, supported me in everything, listened to me and comforted me.
My friends, whom I have also told little by little, what’s going on and have responded to my fear absolutely great and understanding. And of course my friend, whom I was able to approach with the help of the therapy, was open and honest with him and trusted that he loves me as much as I love him. But you too, dear Sandra, have been a very important person for me during this time. I thank you for everything.
For your support, your help, your understanding and your empathetic way of talking to me about my problems. For always taking me seriously. I never had the feeling that I was ashamed of something or could not tell you something.
You are a great person and I am glad that I met you. You helped me find my way back to a happier, and carefree life. From the beginning you had no doubt that I could do it and in retrospect I can say: You were right!!!
Thank you for your belief in me and your confidence in my abilities. You have always been there for me and have accompanied me on my way towards being healthy and seen how I slowly became a confident, self-confident, positive-thinking, content and joyful woman.
Sandra, I will never forget what you have done for me and hope that we will remain forever in friendship.